Contradiction.

"I'm a realist, I'm a romantic. I'm an indecisive piece of shit."
- The Cribs

I never felt like lyrics actually applied to me until i heard these words sung by Ryan Jarman.
I am a realist and a romantic, i spend most of my days fighting with myself because they don't coincide well. I dream constantly, about everything. But when i dream of something i really want the realist in me comes in sword blazing reminding me its impossible, or at least highly improbable. Worst part is i know the realist is right, yet the dreamer in me refuses to subside. So i guess for the rest of my existence i will be tired and frustrated, yet i really don't mind. I just feel like one big contradiction.